I have always believed that failure isn’t the end of the journey. I think that there is light at the end of the tunnel. I have heard many preachers and motivational speakers state that we will come out victorious no matter the circumstances, and I stand firm on God’s Word.
What do you do when you have spent your entire life relying on God but still feel a void and emptiness? How do you progress from there? Although I have been in church pretty much all my life, sometimes I feel empty and purposeless. I ask myself, why the emptiness? Am I not fully living my life?
Have I been over compromising? Have I been too hard on myself? What should I do in such circumstances? What is happening in my life? Where do I go from here? Am I only alive or just living?
I always tell myself that I want to live life to the fullest and be happy, hence be restored and joyful.
People around me always think that my life is perfect because I tend to look good on the outside. If only they could understand that we are all fighting a battle in life. Although I may smile, I and several others live with the hope of a better tomorrow.
Are things not working out for me because of the choices I make/made?
Am I happy with myself?
Am I happy with my job?
Am I happy with my education?
Am I happy with my side hustle?
Am I happy with my family and friends?
What would eventually quench my thirst?
Can I live my life following my passion?
Let me be real with you; sometimes, I do cry. I cried this week privately and publicly. I was disappointed, felt betrayed and stuck with no available option.
What do I do to live again? How do I balance my outward and inward self?
I might look good on the outside, but what is the condition of my heart? Inside I am hurting and feel disappointed.
Though Sorrow may last for a night, I know my joy is coming.
As a 30 something-year-old lady, I ask that you please show me the way, Lord. Order my steps and restore my joy, love, peace, grace and favour.
In God, I trust!
